真心被糟蹋

Nobody is born with the same heart. Do not assume everyone will love you the way you love them.

许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可 委屈却没有人诉说
每一次想开口 但不如保持安静

There will be days when it seems impossible.

There will be days when it is.

There will be days when you’re stressed, or you’re tired, or you didn’t sleep well the night before, or you got into a fight with your best friend, or with your boyfriend, or with your parents, or you saw your bank account statement, or your boss yelled at you, or your client canceled the account, or you didn’t meet numbers, or you locked yourself out of your apartment, or your roommate used the last of the toilet paper, or your cat peed on your coat, or you missed the express train that pulled out of the station right as you got there, or you tripped and fell on the street, or you spilled hot coffee down your shirt, or you lost your debit card, or you got a really bad tangle in your hair, or you lost a contact lens, or you got a blister, or you found out your ex was dating somebody new, or plans fell through. There will be days when everything happened. There will be days when nothing happened. There will be days when it’s because it’s Wednesday. There will be days when it’s because it’s not.

There will be days when everything and nothing is the straw that breaks your back, and you want to cave. Sometimes, you begin to. Sometimes, you do even though you don’t want to, not really. There will be days when giving in, when relenting, when giving up seems so easy and so obvious, and it will be so painful when you do it. There will be days when you feel weaker by the second, and more useless, and more hopeless, and lost and alone and confused and scared.

There will always be these days. There will be a lot of them. There will be more than you will be able to count.

But there will always be tomorrow, too.

And there will always be right now.

And you can always forgive yourself, right now, and take a deep breath, right now, and move on. Right now. Right in this moment. It’s not easy, but worthwhile things often aren’t. And you will have to learn to forgive yourself, even when you slip up—especially when you do—because the extra shame incurred in starting from scratch will only tie you down. After all, you are only human, and humans sometimes falter. And really, that’s okay. If you thought you were anything more, if you still thought you were superhuman, you’d still be chasing invincibility to rock bottom.

You are not useless. You are not hopeless. And no matter how scared you are, you will never be alone. And deep down, somewhere, in the part of you that decided the good days and your happiness and your health were all worth fighting for, you know that, too. Hold onto that knowledge. It will see you through the worst.

Because those bad days will always happen, but it’s in this moment, right here and now, that you can realize that no matter how many days you have, they do not mean you’ve lost the days you’ve won. And there will be more days to win, whatever winning means to you. Being clean, being sober, being recovered. Just not being depressed and overwhelmed and overwhelmingly sad. Whatever it is. If it’s all of the above, if it’s none.

This too shall pass, and you will not be less of a person for it. Bad days cannot take away who you are.

There as many days to win as there are tomorrows. Days that you can win. Days that you will win.

Because these days—the bad ones—do not define you. Not unless you let them. You are defined by the days that you decide define you.

And you can be defined by the days you win."

- Thought Catalog

Trust me when I say I know exactly how a failure feels like now.

I just haven't put in serious effort. At this junction, Im probably looking down on myself.

 

I've waited for 23rd Sept all my life

This is definitely one of the best stepping stones in my life :*)

There was a point in time where I attempted to compromise with myself

I thought I'd be equally glad with the second best

But God is a faithful God; He is more faithful in His promises than I am to my dreams.

 Right now, Im just praying for awesome colleagues and a good boss x

On another note, Im going for Europe for 3 weeks in November with AT

YAAABEEERRRDDDOOOUUBBBBLEEDDDDOOOOOOOOOOOO

I'll be getting ready for Christmas there! Been doing alot of research and Im thrilled to my bones!!

The weather's gonna be intensely chilly at 6°C to 2°C in the day and 3°C to -3°C at night.

Everything is so surreal!!!!

Dreams do come true,

Thank you Jesus.

"Thirtieth, I'm in love with you and all these little things"

 

 Ytd was our 30th monthsary! Our plan was to have a short dinner date since I have to report for work at 9pm.

F1 casting ended early so I have like 3hrs to burn before AT ends work.
This got to be the shortest casting Ive ever attended -
3-5mins to fill up the forms, and less than 1min of exchanging greetings
I left the place with light hopes but couple of hours later, I received notice that I was shortlisted, so yay! $.$

Okay back to how I spent my 3 (lonely) hours - shopping! What else right lol
Scored some really nice formal dresses and outerwear frm H&M & F21. Thursday was awesomezx!!



Gonna do my makeup now, have to roll my lazy butt to work at 9pm
Will be flying down to Playhse and Beer Market after work at 12am!
ANNNDDDD Im mtg either vuvu or AT aft that; I can expect myself to sleep when the sun rises.
LOOOOOOOOOOOONG NIGHT AHEAD!

人在最高峰和最低谷的时候，会有一种很虚空的感觉

一种被吊在半空中，脚踩不到地的恐惧感。

人最大的敌人是自己；因为人里面有惧怕。

怕不能胜任，怕别人的眼光，怕失去，怕让人失望，怕承担，

怕面对过去，怕未来，怕理想不能实现，怕生老病死；

什么都怕，完全被怕控制住。

 所以一直做自己的敌人。

Definition:

The quarterlife crisis is a period of life following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the late teens to the early thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult.



 

Everyday I ask myself the same question - What do I really want to be?

This is all over my FB feeds. Credits to whoever who shared this!

Bronnie Ware is an Australian nurse who spent several years working in palliative care, caring for patients in the last 12 weeks of their lives. She recorded their dying epiphanies in a blog called Inspiration and Chai, which gathered so much attention that she put her observations into a book called "The Top Five Regrets of the Dying".


 

Here are the top five regrets of the dying, as witnessed by Ware:

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

"This was the most common regret of all. When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honored even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made. Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it."

2. I wish I hadn't worked so hard.

"This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret, but as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence."

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

"Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result."

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

"Often they would not truly realize the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying."

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

"This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content, when deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again."

I wish I've read this earlier. But it's still not too late.
I hope you'll find the courage to love and express, to be happy.
Dream it, Wish it, Do it.
God bless.